Yay I found back whatever I was typing yesterday.

Hello everyone. Haven't updated for a long time.

Recently I've been really busy. Immersing myself with fun and work at the same time, since this is the last term I can really slack, fool around and contribute my most for the Band. I watched Confessions of a Shopaholic with the girls a few weeks ago yay. It was such a funny show! Laughed until I teared lol. I suggested pool sometime and hopefully we'll go and play.

Um.. Then there was Exco interview which was generally quite disappointing. Oh well. Wah the entire interview took like 12 hours to complete. Like from 2+ to 8pm for 2 days. By 10pm I want to go and sleep already. Too demanding for my brains. Eh, it's not that my brain cannot take it, it's because I focus on every single applicant no matter how small the posts they're running for :)
Next, I've been to 2 strings practices already and I enjoyed myself a lot. The people there are enthusiastic and everything feels so nice. Like yesterday we ran through Pirates, there was this damn nice feeling though we didn't play it very nicely. Immerse and enjoy man. But then I sometimes doubt that I'll be able to tahan the entire concert. Since it's only me and WeiJie playing the clarinet, it's solo work all the way. Cannot slack at all the damn long notes. Oh oh we're playing Sabre Dance (woohoo). The bad news? I can't tongue the altissimo E in quavers at 184 atm LOL! Will over-tone to top A. Sian. Aiyah all in all it's fun lah.

Band practices are so strange and weird but I sort of adjusted myself to the cultural shift already. Ok lah not exactly a cultural shift. Maybe just a paradigm shift. Windscapes is definitely a tough piece but in all things we do, we should strive to go beyond ourselves isn't it? Every time you listen to the piece you gain new ideas and some new, wild things just pops up in your head. You slowly understand and feel that you're in control of everything, you only can like it more and more and not get sick of it. There is depth to this artistic piece but the Band must learn to be more imaginative ~_~! Stretch. Perform. We will be able to do it in the next 20 days. This is a piece of acquired taste. Unlike all the safe safe pieces.

So I'm so busy with Band Band and more Band, I'm starting to not cope in school already. This is BAD! Rahh. It's like I reach home very late, and after I bathe and get myself comfortable, it's my usual time to sleep liao. At most I read a bit of my notes and didn't even touch my tutorials. What's best is (digress) I'm slowly reverting back to my old diet omg when I'm not even physically active as I should be. More fried stuff and potato chips coming in omg omg omg wth I need to stop. ANYWAY, ya lah. I can't concentrate in school too because Band matters and issues and nonsense keep running through my mind. Dunno why but it's so stressful.

I went to watch the dance SYF today. They did a clean job man. Really respect the dancers and their instructor who made the first step to tell everyone that they really should move on with the conventional 'nice-nice' dances. VJ's dance was some abstract thing which to me was very angsty, wild and bondage type, for SYF!! Lol I dunno why bondage but it feels that way. Throughout the performance I was really at the edge of my sit lah and I think they succeeded in connecting with the audience, though their item is weird to a lot of people. But I somehow could appreciate it. Go avant gaurde. Next is choir's and our turn to bring in something new to the Arts scene in Singapore.

Lately I've been so unconscious - the spiritual way. You know, I'm struggling to follow and stay awake in school and I feel so lethargic all the time (I realised I sort of repeated this). At night before I sleep Overture 2 and Windscapes just compulsively run in my mind, exactly like how Rhapsody kept playing and playing in my mind 2 years back. The good news is that I actually know that I'm unconscious, which actually means I'm conscious and I need to start to be the watcher. It's so hard to do it though. Band things and issues keep popping up in my head suddenly when I'm eating, going through lectures, on the bus, when I'm bathing, etc. I talked to the Band yesterday but I dunno if I was talking sense. But there was an effort made to push everyone. Seriously this term is the most tiring term in JC life lah. Tests almost every week, plus everyone is trying to cover as much topics as possible and with competitions and SYFs. I know, however, at the end when I step down I'll feel happy for I've given whatever I can give. The more you give the happier you become. I just hope that 50% of my motivation in looking forward to school will continue to encourage one another along the way. Yep, that 50% is my friends. That includes you, if you're from VJC.

Something random happened just now when I was applying cream to all those uncountable number of acne distributed evenly (I guess I studied too hardcore-ly) on my upper body, my brother walked past and commented that I'm quite muscular. LOLOLOLOL yes go on and laugh, because I laughed too. I thought I looked like a stick when I'm bare. What nonsense can -_- Muscular my ass lah.

Ok this weekend is going to be hell for me. Saturday Band exchange at HC and need to mug for mock bio spa and actual chem spa on Monday and not to forget Genetics lecture test in that week too.

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Sean